all the haters,
i swear
they look so small from up here

D DSUS4 A A D EM EM D G G

sometimes life throws things at you which you can't control no matter how hard you try
sometimes they turn out for the better, sometimes for worse
just try to be ready although they can be unexpected
just remember to keep your pride and your chin up, you tried your best

but now it's done it's out of your control, out of your reach, out of your sight
(repeat til fade)

deux cent

time really does fly
and sometimes important things happen right under your nose without you even realising, leaving you wondering how you ever missed it

...and it all comes, crashing back down on me
oh, and also stopping me along the way to punch me in the face

never felt so free

i really don't know what to expect
but now all the thinking is gone
and the wait begins...again

listening to the recordings

i'm pretty happy with them but they are farfarfar from perfect
on another note, the wait is now over!
just picked up my photos
and they are quite lurvely
not what i was expecting but rather nice nonetheless
i'll scan them on the weekend
(after the massive maths exam)
and put a couple up.
WISH ME LUCK FOR MATHS
que sera, sera

drink beer with the guys
nnnnothing on you babe

the screen is black...literally

very many things i miust do this week
but i cant wait to get it over and done with
so i can bloody breathe again and maybe do the things i've wanted to
oh...by the way

AMY MEREDITH WAS FUCKING AMAZING!!

oh alex

i lover chu ever so

made my day

I understand how scissors can beat paper, and i get how a rock can beat scissors, but there’s no fucking way paper can beat rock. Is paper supposed to magically wrap around rock and leave it immobile?Why the hell can’t paper do this to scissors? Screw scissors, why can’t paper do this to people?Why aren’t sheets of college ruled notebook paper constantly suffocating students as they take notes in class? I’ll tell you why, because paper can’t beat anybody. A rock would tear that shit up in two seconds. When i play rock paper scissors, i always choose rock. Then when somebody claims to have beaten me with their paper i can punch them in the face with my already clenched fist and say, oh shit im sorry, i thought paper would protect you, you asshole.

take down 3 camby posters
revert back to gold mirror
rearrange desk wall
get rid of paintings
put photo of street inside wardrobe, outside
keep desk tidier
buy a shelf, get rid of the junk
new curtains
get rid of writing on window
have a poster&photo kind of wall on bed wall
redo door
put up more memories
leave mannequin bare every so often
glow in the dark stars, so i can actually see stars every so often
ditch the holding hands men, keep a couple
buy some plants perhaps
eliminate uneccessary colour so it doesnt affect mood

gathering ideas and mental notes

i need a change and
i feel as if i've grown out of my room
it looks so immature now
but it was who i was
perhaps at more of a year 8 stage
everything so colourful, so 'ikea'
but maybe it's time to scrap the whole thing and start fresh
looks like a summer holiday project

okay listen because i'm only going to say this once
running away is not going to get you anywhere
if you made it up, admit it now
then if not, you need help
if you aren't going to accept it from your friends
then i don't know what you want
if it's for the attention,
well, look now you've got it

what's with all the faking
don't you just get so tired of pretending?
it probably sounds hypocritical
and i can't really talk
but sometimes
things are just easier to see
when they are placed in reverse

the colours leaving me behind

how did you get this far?
i know it is a
combination of talent and good timing
i'm so happy for you
i don't want to follow your path
but i wouldn't mind some guidance to help me find mine
whatever that may be

slow down darling

finally feeling right

just think i should add
i bought my new guitar on the 1st of november 2010
just so i remember :)

haven't felt so happy in a long time

just got some great news
cathy is moving to kew!!
and might be moving to mlc
i love my life xxx

a simple complication

it's looking like a contest
who can act like they don't care less
now we're standing alone in a crowded room
and we're not speaking
and i'm dying to know is it killing you like it's killing me
so many things that i wish you knew
so many walls that i can't break through
i'm searching the room for an empty seat,
cos lately i don't even know what page you're on
how'd we end up this way?
nervously pulling at my clothes to try and seem breezy
and i'm doing my best to avoid you
but you held your pride like you should have held me
so why are we pretending this is nothing?
i've never heard silence quite this loud

gotta love a good friday

PARTY!

im on my guard with the rest of the world but with you i know it's no good

relax
breathe
you've done all you can
now continue on

sex on the radio

how did you do that?
wow

i think i've lost track of what is truly important
maybe ive been caught up in what i want
ive forgotten about everyone and everything else
it might be hard
but im sure i can do it

you can have her
not that you deserve her

ask me. ask me a question, the question. not that i can tell you that i will be able to to answer, but i need you to ask first. i cannot guarantee you that i will wake up one day and feel differently but no one can. do it, be brave and do it. take a breath, step out and do what everyone else is too afraid to do, i know you can

how can you sleep when time won't stop? aren't you afraid you are going to miss out? miss out on it all?

some changes need to be made here

ive done something wrong
im doing something wrong
i need to make this right
all i need is a push in the right direction
for everything to be alright again

how and why would you want to be someone else
i cannot possibly wrap my mind around that
i dont know whether to think you are selfish and ungrateful or...
i couldn't feel sorry for you, because you have *everything anyone could ever want
how can i make you see that
maybe there's no such thing as perfect but you are the closest godamn thing

i want to get to know you, all of you, although not exactly befriend you. but just just to know you, because truly, i'm curious.

it's times like this, when i've just had a shower and my hair is lying wet across my shoulders, when anything seems possible..and maybe, that might just be.

jobskills tomorrow
and i think im going to go for music recorder
no regrets right
what have i got to lose :)

the weekend

the start of a new week

fresh fresh fresh

it's what you want it to be :)

mars the planet of war

there is a war brewing
i can feel it...

you were an expert at sorry,and keeping lines blurry, never impressed by me acing your tests. all the girls that you run dry, have tired lifeless eyes because you burned them out. but i took your matches before fire could catch me, so don't look now. i'm shining like fireworks over your sad empty town

you change the rules everyday

you're in the car on the way to the movies
and you're mortified your mom's dropping you off
at 14 there's just so much you can't do
and you can't wait to move out someday and call your own shots
but don't make her drop you off around the block
remember that she's getting older too
and don't lose the way that you dance around in your pj's getting ready for school
don't you ever grow up, it could stay this simple
no one's ever burned you, nothing's ever left you scarred
take pictures in your mind of your childhood room
memorize what it sounded like when your dad gets home
remember the footsteps, remember the words said
and all your little brother's favorite songs
i just realized everything i have is someday gonna be gone

I'm so glad you made time to see me
How's life, tell me how's your family?
I haven't seen them in a while.
You've been good, busier then ever.
We small talk, work and the weather
Your guard is up and I know why.

These days I haven't been sleeping
Staying up playing back myself leaving,
When your birthday passed and I didn't call.
And I think about summer, all the beautiful times
I watched you laughing from the passenger side
Realized that I loved you in the fall.

amber

Dear John
I see it all now that you’re gone
Don’t you think I was too young
To be messed with
The girl in the dress
Cried the whole way home
I should’ve known.

i've never been so sure in my life
never been as sure as right now

some are like water some are the heat

some are the melody and some are the beat

sooner all later they all will be gone

why don't they just stay young

it's so hard to get old without a cause

i don't want to perish like a fleeing horse

youth's like diamonds

and diamonds are forever

so many adventures couldn't happen today

so many songs we forgot to play

so many dreams swinging out from the blue

we let them come true