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chillin at the caz crib

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i'm currently at my cousin caroline's house and this weekend i realised i am doing quite a few things that i wouldn't usually do on a normal weekend.

firstly, today i went bowling which i haven't done for roughly a year probably. the bowling in itself is not much fun i guess but just the vibe you get and the atmosphere you are in just makes you really really high. especially when it's your boy cousin's 11th birthday (the age harry potter turns when he finds out he's a wizard) and he's invited about a billion of his tiny tiny friends who wear two party hats on their chest as boobs. hahhaha

and tomorrow i'm going to the aquarium (nostalgic sighh) and i really wanna ride that crazy ride where you sit on seats and have that virtual roller-coaster experience on the screen. and then afterwards i'm going ice skating; yip yip!!

ahhh let's not grow up too fast, shall we?

did i say i'm just a boy?

Do you believe that there are treasures in the ocean

One kiss from you and I'm drunk up on your potion
That big old smile is all you wore

No lonely hands grab my suitcase full of nothing

You took me in gave me something to believe in

That big old smile is all you wore

juju gilly

how are we supposed to trust this woman?!
KEV FTW

my holiday projects

it's good to have somehing to keep your hands moving this holidays and not to sit back and eat or tap away at the computer which evidently is what i am doing now. but not for long, because i have a couple of holiday projects! and i am simply calling them that because it has a certain je ne sais quoi about it, but really i'm not aiming to finish it this holidays, because i am slow at almost everything, but hey whatever

i am in the midst of a prety lame scarf i admit, but i'm sort of proud of it in a weird way. so if you see me wearing a black holey scarf; yeah that's right i made it.

okay so after lunch i am headed off to buy some essentials for my room, namely 3M tape and some hooks. i'm putting up some posters and rearranging my walls because i believe it is time for CHANGE. sometime i will also try and get the pretty gross yellow off my mirror which i painted last year when i was a little strange. if all goes well it should return to it's former lovely gold (why would i paint over that?!) but if things go against me, i will paint it black as some people have requested uless someone comes up with a better idea. i'm also putting up some posters which a lovely lady from camberwell market gave me to hide some of the bare white wall.

i also got given a MASSIVE bag of wool which i've decided i'm going to make into a throw/quilt of some sort because this hideous bag must go, because really all it's doing is acquiring dust from underneath my bed. mmm and i swear every cupboard i open seems to have some scrappy piece of fabric, which i can probably sew together into a quilt as well. i just need to find a backing piece of fabric and some batting (maybe flannel to remind me of marshymead :)). although i cannot get started on this because i can't find my blooming foot pedal for my sewing machine, but i WILL find it today. i've got to also change my curtains because the backing is all ripped and the front one is a bit plain. i'll get them from ikea and maybe get a mini laptop table thing, but i guess i shouldn't need it, eh?

so anyway this week is going by really slowly for me, since i don't have much to do (apart from my projects of course!). monday was almost unbearable, i felt as if i was going crazy. yesterday was better i'm not quite sure why, maybe i'm gradually getting used to solitude. but i also just sat on my balcony for a bit and closed my eyes. i wasn't sleeping cos, well, who can sleep sitting down? but i was just sort of being there. i was pretty relaxed but there was something nagging me at the back of my mind which i couldnt quite place my finger upon. but this morning i remembered. my maths homework. aggggggggggggggg

sorry that was a long blog, not that anyone would be reading but bear with me. hmm i see what is addictive about this. just rambling on to yourself. huh. maybe i AM going crazy.

lights will guide you home

before i think i almost kidded myself that i was content with loneliness

but now i know that not even for one minute did i believe it
i am grateful for what i have and although sometimes i am on my own,

i am not really alone at all

listen closely

if i was a tram driver, i would be one of those ones who would ding the bell as the other tram went past.

fast car

i remember we were driving, driving in your car
the speed so fast i felt like i was drunk
city lights lay out before us
and your arm felt nice wrapped around my shoulder
and i had a feeling that i belonged
and i had a feeling i could be someone

we sure are cute for two ugly people

if you never try than you'll never know just what you're worth but your smell will evade me and linger for a decade or two just go back to bed and sleep forever and maybe you will be noticed i dont understand you say but i reply with neither do i

it'll ignite your bones

if you never try then you'll never know what you're worth, proof is remember when you were so happy you had met me when you did, because you were starting to think you didn't like people.

i'm on my own but i'm not alone

...surrounded by a million so-called friends, and i don't even know their names

as if marshmead is tomorrow
well you guys better write to me
address is in my facebook 'about me'
and i think you know who you are

sure why not

alright sabine did something weird which i have to do

7 things..about me i'm assuming

1. I hate coffee, it makes me shrink (which is really, not a good thing) and tastes like ass

2. My computer battery is being worn...down . . .s l o w l y . . .

3. I'm going to a camp for 8 weeks soon and I'm really excited mainly cos I can meet lots and lots of lovely people

4. I miss my friends although I saw them ten minutes ago

5. I'm a dork, really. Or a nerd, or a geek whatever you prefer

6. My room is really messy right now

7. I LOVE CHEESE. Like major love, this isn't a crush. This is a lifelong committment!!!

Toodle pip!

everything is nice again

i woke up this morning, and i suddenly realised

we're all in this together

ahh it was so nice to go back to school

not really, i mean my old school

you're not a land mine, no you're not a gold mine, no you're not mine at all

i will never love you more

I will never love you more than my guitar
I will never love you more than mozerella cheese
I will never love you more than meeting the Glee cast
I will never love you more than DVD's night with my girlfriends
And we talk about stupid things like feelings and boys
I will never love you more than my Tamagotchi
Even if it's now out of battery, I will never love you more

i have a feeling i could be someone

how much will change while i am gone?
a lot can happen in 8 weeks
people change

we're all in this together

time sort of crept up on me

soon i will be out of here

but this is my only chance

to make things right

I NEED TO PACK

i'm scared i've forgotten shit

but i ceebs going through the list

i think i have most things

but i don't know how to catagorise the bags

i won't see anyone for ten years
agggggg

i need addresses so i can write

and do things the old fashioned way

overthinking it

how do you know what you should be grateful for?
everything?

that would get in the way of everything
but the minute you forget, forget to be grateful
it will bite your bum and be taken away from you.

hey soul sister, i don't wanna miss a thing

blogging is a bore

but because i haven't done so in a very long time

i have a sudden odd urge to

since i can't tomorrow with too much going on

it will possibly make it into one of the best nights ever

and there are more things i want to write but i cannot be bothered because my hands are tired.

shush, it's okay things will get better you just have to hold on and wait for tomorrow. someday i will have a fast car, fast enough to fly away so i have things my way. somewhere where there is no such thing as being unwanted. i can wait until then

i'm afraid i won't make any friends

dear sabine

Look!
Here's a blog!
Aren't you proud of me?
I'm in science class..... and I'm bored
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