please

i hope you are real
and not just something i've made up in my head
that would just be too utterly typical

so what

i wonder if the perfect guy exists?
logic tells us he doesn't
but we all can't help but wish he did

i wish..

i've listened to you
day after day
think i've finally figured you out
i know how you are
the look i saw was unmistakable
just wish i knew your name x

it's an exciting day for all

i can almost see the excitement
i can feel it, all tingly
i just wish i could be a part of it

you can meet me half-way

right in the middle is where i'll be

you know i can't spell it out for you

this is something you are going to have to do alone
i will be there for you if you fall
i'm not leading the way
i hope you succeed
but never forget the people who have always been there for you
i hope you would do the same for me

i was slicing up an avocado

they live in an alternate universe to me

one which is unknown and foreign

although this is exciting

and although i'm loving it

it is not where i belong

but i'm going with it

in reality

note to self:
what's the point of judging someone through their actions if you do not know the motives and thought behind it, and all the reasons attached to it?
sometimes it's easier to see when the situation is placed in reverse, but before you do, think of how it would feel if it were you

the universe has righted itself

come with us now

on a journey thorough time and space

to the land of the mighty boosh

the mighty boooo-ooooosh

fab start to the week i believe :)

lots of hugs and kisses x

thought everything was going well

good start to a week
but then i lost it

who'd have known

i haven't left here for days now
and im becoming amazed how
you're quite affectionate in public
in fact your friend said it made her feel sick
ask your friends they all know
we exist but we're taking it slow
and even though it's moving forward
it's just the right amount of awkward
and today you acidentally called me baby

dammit

god
this just loaded and now the bell has gone
so...
im wasting this blog post
ENJOY

discover!

the weekend has been and gone
it's time to start a new week

it's like looking for hay, through a stack of hypodermics

lying face down on the hardwood floor

this weekend will be a busy one

busy, but fun

although this is good, i was hoping for a more relaxed type of weekend,

with some music and a good book, and many phonecalls

but this will do for now

every other weekend will be jam packed too

but sometimes it is good to have some crazy in your life

so you can appreciate the normal x

:(

i have homework for every subject

even P.E.

fml

mine

i braced myself for the goodbye
cos it's all i've ever known
but you took me by surprise
you said i'll never leave you alone

overload of stresssss

there's too much going on right now
i wish everything would slow down
weekends are taken up with events, and nights are taken up with homework

OPERATION SLOW DOWN
is initiating NOW.

deja vu

she can't see the way your eyes

they light up when you smile

she can't see the way you stop and stare

whenever she walks by

and you can't see me wanting you the way you want her

she doesn't even know you

she's never gonna love you the way i want to

you just see right through me

but if you only knew me

we could be a beautiful, miracle

instead of just invisible

finally met a girl who's gonna put him first

i'm really quite lucky

i know who i want to be and where i want to go in life

not the big descisions like my job or soulmate

but the little things

like what i want to do in my gap year, people i want to stay in contact with, the furniture i want in my house, the hobbies i want to take up, the hobbies i want to keep,the colour i am going to paint my room and which pets i want.

although these things may not seem as important as the big things it's the little things which make up a whole and although they may be small but they are what make the big things big.

sometimes i feel tempted to write these little things down to ensure i don't forget them. but i try and take a deep breath and tell myself that these descisions are a part of me and if i forget them, maybe that was meant to happen. i tell myself to take things as they come.

earlier on, i didn't believe year 9 was the year things happened. i thought it was rather more year 8. but i didn't quite understand this concept. i was thinking more along the lines of drugs, relationships and alcohol. little did i know that the things we were bound to find out were things which were bigger than that. things more along the lines of your true friends, the path you want to follow, the person you want to be.

"i guess i'm lucky, i smile a lot. it's just sometimes i wish for more than i've got."